I feel betrayed

I don't know what to do or say to Yi zhen.

She is pretending to be friendly with me.(maybe)

She says we can trust each other but if she won't tell me the truth, how am I suppose

to trust her?

Sigh..

I am lazy to type anymore. thanks for reading. bye.

Z_Z

It's goodbye

I's time to say goodbye yet I cant cry

I wonder why but I want to cry too

I really wonder what is wrong with me.

Not being able to see him in the face and

ask him..

"Do you hate me?"

I really wished he have like me but I know it was impossible.

It's better this way because..

this way, I dont need to hear those words from his own mouth..

"I don't like you a single bit. I hate you"

because it hurts even more..

I'll try to stop thinking of you but...

I still can't stop loving you.

I thought you understand

sorry but i only remember the chorus part of my song. enjoy.

I thought you believe me

but you didn't at all

instead you believe her...

I thought they understand me

but they didn't at all

and so I was alone..

so that's the end...

heart broken?

I have always been there

yet no one ever notice me..

I tried being stupid but it lasted for a day..

you were the first to make me think that going to school was fun

you were the first to make me feel warm

laugh till i cry and even to love..

When I wanted you to be there,

you were gone..

When I started to hate you,

you came back making me fall in love with you again..

Is this a dream or a reality?

Every time I close my eye to hear your words,

I see that image..

A image that I really want it to happen..

I always thought that you were an angel

an angel that can make me fly free

but it was all a dream..

I start my day by thinking of you

I think of your smile and your annoyed face

they all make me smile

I wonder if it's just me or are you in my mind all the time..

I tried confessing but it didn't work..

I tried telling you that you shouldn't judge a person that way

but you just told me off

Did I fall in love with you or just your smile face?

I close my eye thinking that you will care

but it was just an act,

you never cared about me..

I cry and cry till it was dawn

wishing that this would not happen again

but I knew wishing was useless..

will my wish come true?

Wishing with all my might,

I wish you'll be close to me

That wish came true but at the wrong time..

you were too close to me

that my friends hated me..

I thought you cared but you never cared at all...

kk. I know the ending part sux but I cant thing of anything better because I keep on laughing about the 'fart' thing that my friend and i chat about.

He love me?!

It's been so long since I have post a post here.

I'll type about the recent stuff.

A guy name Matt likes me and I hate him well..

not really hate him just that i dont like him.

and on 19 november, we went to snow city to have our graduation party.

he started throwing snow balls at me so i throw the snowman's head at him.

when I was tired, i sit on the snow and..

matt: oi! *throw a snowball at me*

me: i'm tired. stop it.

matt: wat? afraid? try throwing a snowball at me then.

me; fine! if I get to throw a snowball at you, you have to give up on me!

And so I did but guess wat he say?

matt: i'll give up on you but i will still love you.

urgh... fell like vomitting..

so gross!!!

even oshi was angry. good thing i throw a snowball at oshi before he punches matt.

For some reasons.. i get the feeling that matt is like a stalker.

well, who cares. after today, i wont be seeing him.

but..

I'm kinda sad that I wont have anyone to argue with like HIM.

anyways, bye!

A bad and terrible day

1 November 2010

Today, I realised that I wasn't good enough to even talk about them.
I was just there as an entertainer once more.
They never wanted me there.
I guess.. I'll just quit.
It's stupid of me to continue when no one wants me there.
It hurts.. I really don't know..
Even the one I thought I could trust once again,
hates me.. I no longer know what I'm here for...
Was it my fate to end up like this or is it because,
I wanted it to end up this way?
It wasn't their fault, instead, it is mine.
If I told them the truth, will they care?
if I told them I'll quit, will they care?
I guess not..
I know them too well that I shouldn't even need to ask.
But.. I really want to take part.......
I hate myself.

SB no.1

Finally! I type the first story describtion for you!

I'm so happy because I just ate an ice cream cake! It was delicious.<3
Even any of you have any one-shot story to show off, you can sent it to me and i'll publish it on one of my pages here!

My e-mail: alwayssmilexmaix@gmail.com

You can call me Rey or Mai. it's fine.

New Picture!

Yippee! Doesn't Peter White look cool? Sigh..
Really love him..

Story Describtions!

I'm going to type a story describtion and you can write a story about it.
This post is extremly short. So sorry.

A secret~

Now, I'm going to tell you a secret that has been kept for quite a long time.
I like a wierd guy now.
I know, I know that 3 years ago, I fell in love with an idiot who have no feelings.
I don't know if I should even continue liking the guy I like now because...
He is the best friend of that guy with no feelings!
Sigh..
It's really furiating!!!!
Well, I dont know anymore.
Hope you guys/gals will like my stories.

Life is all about me

Miru- a girl that is loyal, trustworthy and strong doesn't seem to have any friends except for her childhood 'friends'
Michii- A guy that is blunt, seems to always be the middle person and the most kind-hearted but is usually mistaken because of he being straight forward
Chihiru- A guy that is an athlete, doesn't like to be told what to do except by Michii. Likes to tease Miru with Michii and is always arguing with Miru.

Not the story yet

Sorry .
i cant type any thing about my story yet but I'll tell you the summary next time.